I was reading through my old blog and my god I was completely depressed for most of 2010. It actually kind of made me sad to see the things I wrote. A lot of similarities from when I was going through my divorce actually. Kind of made me wonder if I even learned anything. I feel like life has a funny way of throwing you the same shit if you don't learn your lesson the first time.

Then I got curious and found my old livejournal that I had while I was in college. Very interesting stuff. I was such a kid. Maybe I still am in some ways! idk

Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to look back on this blog in 10 years. Will I be content? I feel like I've grown a lot, especially within the last few years. I don't want to be sad when I look back on my life. I think I have a lot to be proud of and I am happy with where I'm going. I don't really have much of a plan for the rest of my life except to just try to be happy. I think that's the most important thing.

2019 Update

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Me at Cabrillo National Monument, overlooking the Pacific Ocean

It's time for my yearly update! Hahaha. Just kidding, kind of. I've been living in San Diego for a year now and I'm beginning to really enjoy it. I do miss home (Hawaii), but I think that's normal. For now, I think I'll stay. It's a bit expensive, but welp, so is Hawaii. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm doomed to move from place to place for the rest of my life, but maybe San Diego will feel more like home one day.

But for the most part, I'm very happy with my first year in San Diego. I've met a lot of great people and I've done so many things for the first time. Hopefully I find the time and motivation to eventually blog about it! But briefly, I joined and participated in a Gals that Brunch meet-up, went fishing on a boat for the first time, learned how to ski, made my first floral arrangement, and got into houseplants (rip to those that were not strong enough to make it in my house).

I did live without internet for a whole year! But I just recently moved to a new apartment to be closer to work (plus, it's cheaper). So, I caved and got internet/wifi. So excited to be able to watch netflix on my tv now! #thelittlethings

Cheers to another year!