2018 Update

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Iconic view of Mt. Fuji from Chureito Pagoda

It's been a while since my last blog post. Hmm.  Now that 2017 is over, I can officially say that it was one of the worst years of my liiiiife. I've never been so heartbroken in my short life. Haha. Sometimes it was too much. But 2017 was also pretty amazing in other ways. I'm glad that it happened while I was in Okinawa. I'm super grateful that I got to travel around Asia. Not as much as I wanted to, but at the same time, it seemed like I was always going somewhere. So, I guess I'm just a brat.

I'm actually in San Diego now. I wanted to move so desperately while I was in Okinawa, but now that I'm finally here, I'm realizing that healing won't come as easily as I thought. I tried to come here with realistic expectations, but haha, you never really know what something will be like until it happens or you're there. I like the area and my new job seems like it could be fulfilling. But sometimes I am scared that I will never be happy and I will spend the rest of my life trying to find my place in this world. But for now, I'm trying to be open minded and not worry so much about that kind of stuff. Trying to make a small home and life here and I'm just trying to enjoy the small things and take things slowly. All while trying not to go bankrupt paying this ridiculous rent. lol #dead

I feel like I have a lot of time on my hands lately. I cut the cord years ago for cable and tv. But I'm trying this new thing where I am living without INTERNET. If you know me, you're probably pretty shocked right now. But it's been a couple weeks that I haven't had internet at home and I'm actually surviving. I used to bingewatch Netflix after work and that's IT. If I want to watch an episode of something, I just watch it on my phone while eating a meal. And if I need my laptop for anything, I just use my phone as a hotspot. There are some things I miss, but I'm super surprised by how well I'm doing without. I'm not sure what I'm going to do when I get my household goods from Okinawa though. Like what am I going to do with my TV? I am thinking about buying a cheap antenna off Amazon so it's not completely useless. Haha.

Anyway, hopefully I will use some of this extra free time to update my blog more often. I have a lot things to write about. About my travels around Okinawa, Mainland Japan, and other parts of Asia. About how music helped me cope with certain things. How certain music still invokes a bunch of feelings about certain periods of my life. And I want to write about my current life because I feel like it will help this transition of trying to make SD my new home. So stay tuned and cross your fingers that I'll actually keep blogging!

And I'm curious about what y'all have been up to lately! Let me know by commenting on this post or reach out to me via instagram!

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